For the first time since she had walked into my house that afternoon with her pearl earrings, her perfume, and her carefully polished authority, she looked uncertain. Not guilty. Not ashamed. Just uncertain, as if the floor beneath her had shifted an inch and she couldn’t decide whether to step forward or retreat.
The photographer glanced between us, clearly wishing she had chosen any other family to work with that day.
“Sure,” she said quietly. “In front of the fireplace?”
“Yes,” I answered. “Please.”
I walked past Linda without brushing against her. I didn’t move quickly. I didn’t storm. I simply crossed the room with my son resting against my chest, his tiny mouth making soft sleeping movements against the edge of his blanket.
The fireplace mantel was decorated with eucalyptus garland and small white candles I had arranged that morning while Daniel slept in. Above it hung the painting I had bought three years earlier, before marriage, before pregnancy, before I knew how lonely a woman could feel inside a family full of people.
I stood there and turned toward the camera.
The photographer lifted her lens.
“Sarah,” Linda said sharply.
I didn’t look at her.
“Just a second,” I said.